How I Overcame Fear in my Life!
Robin shares her personal triumph over fear.
One day I was sitting down in my living room doing my particular version of meditation, when I was struck by an amazing thought and visuals.
I had been meditating on fear and how it seemed to rule so many aspects of my life. I used to call it worry or concern, or anxiety as those terms seemed more socially acceptable, and I could make myself believe I was not really afraid.
Truth be told, I always knew it was plain old fear, no matter how I dressed it up, and that particular day I decided to have a “truth moment”. I said, “No more lying to myself, I need clarity, this fear program is stopping right now!!” I knew deep down, that self-Honesty was the only way to figure this all out.
So, one by one, I started to look at all the areas in my life that produced fear:
Fear for my children
Fear of lack be it money, food, security,
Fear of public speaking,
Fear of doing the wrong thing,
Fear of dying,
Fear of what others thought of me,
Fear of not having enough of me to go around,
Fear of all the things I was discovering in my research.
There were so many rabbit holes I had gone down,
Fear of all the lies that seemed to be my reality,
Fear of what I didn’t know....the list just went on and on.....
Ok...so now what do I do with this knowledge?
What good or support had I received from accepting this fear and radiating it outwardly?
Well, thinking back, I saw fear had caused much sickness in my life.
I had to undergo several surgeries, then a heart attack, and so on.... All these happenings just perpetuated the cycle I was in.
Really fear hadn’t served me well, nor the living in this constant fear program...SO... really WHO could this fear program possibly serve????
Well, that was the question I must have been searching for, ‘cause immediately, I saw myself surrounded by dozens of creatures, demons, beings of all sorts. And they were reaching out and grabbing onto wisps of energies, flowing from me. I knew that those wisps of energy represented all my diverse fears...All those fears I had just admitted to harbouring. And those creatures were having a feast at my expense!!!! I was feeding them!!! They were laughing at me!!!
Well, that caught my attention for sure....So I said: “Enough is enough, that is the last feast you will get from me!!!!”
This began my journey of laying down my fears one by one.
Did it all happen overnight?
In one way it did, because if I caught myself falling prey to fear, I would SEE those creatures, hoping for a feast and I would say NO, and out stubbornness I would direct my energies elsewhere.
On my journey to today, I dealt with each fear individually, since I didn’t want to carry around so much baggage.
Over time I was able to do this because I learned to love myself....now that is a whole other story...
I also eventually discovered, you can’t just get rid of something.
You need to replace one feeling with another.
When you have a vacuum, an empty region, something always comes in to fill the void to create balance.
I decided to replace the fear/anger, with love with joy! Now this part of the process, is an ongoing work of love for me along with the entire earth.......
Gualtleena
robin
Oct 10th, 2021
