I used to worry.  I grew up believing that "worry" was a part of life.  It was normal to worry.   Everyone, especially mothers, did it.  That idea seems laughable to me today.  Worry might be normal but it is not natural.

There was a time that thoughts of worry, like busying myself with figuring out a back up plan, consumed me.  Driving in the dark, frankly, anything in the dark, caused some unsettling and uneasy feelings in me.  Truthfully I lived in a constant state of fear on the inside, but thought this was normal.   

At one point in my life, I lived in a condo with gatehouse security.  I had a security system in my condo.  I still slept with a butcher knife under my pillow and the phone beside my bed, ready to phone 911.  

This all transformed as I confronted the memories of my childhood.  I had neatly tucked them away to protect my mind from fear and worry overload. 

As I was driving in the pitch...

Are you aware that each one of us plants 50,000 to 70,000 thought seeds each day?  That's way more than one sunflower which produces 1,000 - 1,400 seeds in one season. 

What are you seeding every day?  

How aware are you of what you are planting in the world every day?

The first time I remember being aware that I was reaping the harvest of a seed was in May 1991.  I was on top of Table Mountain, in Cape Town, South Africa, watching the sun set over the Indian Ocean.

I had planted this seed many years before and forgot I had said it.  When I was in high school, I used to say, "I am going to work hard for a company for 5 years, and then go out on my own"  

The "aha" was that I resigned and left my career one week short of 5 years.   I had a thought, spoke it out as I thought about my career path, but I could never imagined that it would turn out the way it did.

When I returned from my four months in Eastern and Southern Africa...even...